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What Is Fulfillment?

Fulfilled. What is that? Sometimes I feel overfilled, yet hardly ever fulfilled. I long for routine, yet I struggle to set and stick to them. I long for financial security, yet I make poor financial decisions (I make some good ones, too). I long for physical fitness, yet I fail to be physically active. I long for quiet times alone, yet I fill my days with busyness. Has there been a time in my life when I felt fulfilled? Crossing the finish line after 13.1 miles in Lynchburg came close. Taking the ferry across the river to the Old Point Bar in Algiers was fun. Hanging out sans James in NOLA while he sat for TJ is up there. Hiking to Diamond Head after my 5K and snorkeling in Hanauma Bay were bittersweet (mostly sweet). My four weeks in Spearman and four weeks on my own in Pinellas were (although anxiety-filled before anxiety was something you sought treatment for) are probably among my proudest moments. Having Olivia didn't really fulfill me, but watching her read does. I...

Busy, Busy... and Breathe

Whoosh... And like that a week without the little has dwindled down to a few hours of quiet time at home without her left. We have been busy. Work, Jack Johnson concert, work, crawfish boil prep, work, tonight, work, kickboxing, crawfish boil... never ending. I have a massage scheduled for next Tuesday... What!?!? I like never get massages. I haven't been very introspective this week - just been busy. I miss my routine even though my routine includes very little time for me. I obviously struggle with too much time on my hands. Gotta get back on track with my goals. (Takes a bite of leftover pizza) Gonna get my butt kicked at kickboxing tomorrow. Ready to veg on the couch with Netflix - ahhh... Motivation, wherefore art thou, Motivation? --magpie